I have never written you or even thought about it. Seems to me that you know everything I do. Of course, just because you do doesn't mean we can talk about it. I guess I'll get to the point. We were left alone for most of our childhood. Having to look out for ourselves was a burden we were not equipped to handle. For many years we concentrated on making other people happy. We sought love, attention, recognition, and care. We had limited success and learned the following lessons: We couldn't make a person love us by being a selfless lover. Something we were still trying to do as an adult. We learned that when we threw around money, drugs, and other entertainment that everyone was our friend. But once all these things disappeared we were left standing alone. As you know there are many more. We'll discuss them later.
It's so easy to look back now and recognize the addictive/compulsive behaviors we were developing. The same behaviors that followed us into adulthood and eventually lead us to prison. So, what have we learned? We've learned that we are not alone. We will not find peace and contentment in the arms of a woman. There is more to life than success and money. It's ok to be comfortable with who we are and our beliefs. People are not equally right, just equally human. The world doesn't revolve around us and we can not control everything or everyone. Running away doesn't solve our problems. People will love us for who we are and not because of what we can give them. We've learned that every person is important. People matter, their feelings and their dreams and their efforts and just their very existence, it all matters.
We've come a long way, you and me. Remember that we need to continue living each and every day. There is happiness, joy, and beauty in living. There are things that we're just beginning to see, experience and learn. You'll never be alone again.
I love you,
Your Adult Self
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